WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH YOUR LIFE, XJ?????????

Fucked. So fucked up. Shit mood again. For the 100th time this year.

I wish for the trillionth time that I didn't get the award. Cos you know what? That's NOT me. Without it, I think i'll go easier on myself. And everyone else ard me. Pretending to be proud of it, is making me a fucking hypocrite. I'm driving myself crazy. something's gonna snap in my brain soon.


Real soon.

6:14 pm